09 June 2010

With Hope

Since my last entry, life has changed. It's been a whirlwind. On Saturday night, our first nephew was born into the arms of Jesus. It's been a tough five days. Today, we said goodbye to Marcos Ian. As the service ended, we stood around the tiny grave and rain--that we haven't seen in a month--poured and poured. As though heaven was crying with us. At the same time, it seemed so refreshing. It seemed like some of the sorrow we've felt was washed away. 

We know that our God is a God of plans. Though we don't fully know the purpose of Marcos' short life on earth, we know that it was purposeful. Our God is a purposeful creator of life. Although we're grieving his loss, we have hope that we'll see him again. We know that God is loving and merciful. We know that in Matthew, he called children to him. Children are special to our Savior.

As we continue to grieve and begin to heal, I have a feeling that this song will be quite fitting.

With Hope 
Lyrics by Steven Curtis Chapman

This is not at all how
We thought it was supposed to be
We had so many plans for you
We had so many dreams
And now you've gone away
And left us with the memories of your smile
And nothing we can say
And nothing we can do
Can take away the pain
The pain of losing you, but ...

We can cry with hope
We can say goodbye with hope
'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end, oh no
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
There's a place where we'll see your face again
We'll see your face again

And never have I known
Anything so hard to understand
And never have I questioned more
The wisdom of God's plan
But through the cloud of tears
I see the Father's smile and say well done
And I imagine you
Where you wanted most to be
Seeing all your dreams come true
'Cause now you're home
And now you're free, and ...

We have this hope as an anchor
'Cause we believe that everything
God promised us is true, so ...

So we can cry with hope
And say goodbye with hope

We wait with hope
And we ache with hope
We hold on with hope
We let go with hope


Christine said...

This absolutely BREAKS my heart. Since I got your text I have been praying for the family. Know that you guys are not alone.

devon said...

Definitely continuing to pray and thanking the Lord for you and your family's hope. We do serve a loving and merciful creator. My thoughts are with you guys and you continue to grieve and heal.

michelle said...

praying for you and your family. we are here for you.

allison said...

So sorry to hear about this heartbreaking loss, Kristina. Praying for your family.